Baby boy will be here soon!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Over half way through my pregnancy!!!

I am now 22 weeks pregnant. I am feeling really good, sometimes i forget that i am even pregnant because i am no longer nauseaus or anything, but then i feel baby boy move or try to bend over and i remember, lol......
We finally decided what we are gonna do with our rooms situation when the baby comes in April, Titus is going to get a new big boy room(the office) and the baby will get his room(its closest to our room and smaller.) We are going to buy titus a new crib that turns into a toddler bed and the baby will have his crib. Wow, i cant beleive that titus will soon be in a toddler bed, of course he is big enough to be in one now but he is still not able to climb out of his crib so i have decided to keep him in it as long as i can. Not ready for him to be able to get out of bed on his own when he wakes up, very scary thought....
Well here is a picture i took tonight of my belly, sorry my head is a little cut off, lol......

Monday, December 7, 2009


I have decided that this year i am done with keeping quiet about this........i am sick of how the world is trying to slowly take Jesus birth and the true meaning of Christmas out of it. So the next time a Walmart cashier says to me "Happy holidays ma'am", i think i will say "No, MERRY CHRISTMAS ma'am, Jesus is the only reason to celebrate this season!"

Tonight we are going to put up our christmas tree, it should be interesting to see how many times i have to tell titus no before he stops trying to pull it over. But i have also come up with a new rule, i actually learned it from another mom, who i get a lot of advice from, her website is she has 4 little ones ages 4 and under, and she is a great example of christian motherhood. Anyway i am using the 1 finger touch rule, i let titus touch anything no matter where we are as long as it is with 1 finger, that way he gets out his urge to touch everything but he is not knocking it over or messing it up. Its working so far, lets hope it works with the tree!

I have been meaning to post some pictures from November but i seem to have misplaced my camera, i have NO CLUE where it is, i just went to get it one day and it wasnt hanging on the hook, i asked jarrell if he took it by chance and he said no, which doesnt suprise me bc my brain has been so spacey lately, i blame it on pregnancy, lol....hope i find it soon!

Well hope everyone has a great week!

Monday, November 23, 2009

Oh the toddler years.....

wow....who knew the toddlers years could be this trying?? Well im sure if i asked anyone who has raised one they would say "me!" Boy is Titus sure trying my patience lately, and the bad thing is i struggle with having patience anyway and up until now its been ok because i couldnt have asked for a better baby.

From the time he was born i maybe heard him cry 3 times, when he first came out and they were washing him off and then maybe a couple other times when i let him get to hungry in between feedings(if we were out somewhere, etc.) Otherwise he would simply whimper a little and root his mouth in a sucking motion that made me know he was hungry. He slept good and was sleeping completely throught the night at 3 months.

And fast we are in the toddler years, Titus is 23 months old, he will turn 2 on December 29(im gonna cry i know it). Dont get me wrong he is still a good kid and most would probably say a great kid compared to other 2 years old, but i am so used to how good he was as a baby that this is taking me by shock, lol....

When he turned 8 months old i decided it was time for him to learn to put himself to sleep(i had been rocking him up untill then and he got to where he would not let me rock him anymore, he would squirm and try to sit up, etc), so i used the cry it out method, he cried for about a week when i layed him down and then after that when i layed him down he would just turn over, or play for a little while and babble and then go to sleep(dont get me wrong, i made it sound easier than it was, i cried the first couple nights that i had to let him cry it out and i also felt like i had an ulcer from the stress of hearing him cry and wanting to go pick him up.) But it was the best thing i ever did!!!! He slept so good with the occasional waking up and also with teething he sometimes had a hard time or when he was sick too, but for the most part he was a good sleeper.

One night not too long ago he decided that he was going to start screaming again when i put him down, so i tried rocking him and he went right to sleep. So i decided hey ill just rock him, he is not going to be a baby forever and plus if he was actually going to let me rock him and go right to sleep then why not? So its been about a month now and every night i rock him to sleep, he is usually asleep within 5 minutes and i put him to bed and he sleeps 10 hours(its great!) Well 3 nights ago he decided he was going to start squirming and trying to get up and play games and sing instead of go to sleep, although this is very cute and entertaining and a lot of times i just let him because i love listening to him, it still does not make for a good bedtime routine. SO........what now?

Well i guess i will try the cry it out again, with the new baby coming in April it may be the best thing but a part of me just doenst want to give up that time with Titus, i just love rocking him(if he lets me) and watching him sleep in my arms, so i guess we will see how it goes. My plan before my children were born was to rock them till their feet touched the ground, and if Titus would let me i probably would, these years fly by and i know i will never regret that time with him and i will always remember and cherish it.......I love being a mommy!!!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

To God be the glory

I am convicted by the fact that i asked for prayers for my friend Khrista here, and then once she started doing better i just kinda left everyone hanging, sorry! I guess i was just so thankful she was doing good and the baby was healthy that i forgot to update everyone. Well so here is an update from Khrista, she posted this on her face book page a few days ago:

To God be the glory, great things he has done.....

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Christmas Pictures

Last night my husband Jarrell and i took Titus to get his pictures taken at Sears. It was a fun little adventure. We first went to the shoe section of Sears to get Titus some black dress shoes, his feet are growing so fast that he only has 2 pair of shoes and no dress shoes(he wears tennis shoes to church). I kinda crenged at the thought of 20 bucks for this pair of dress shoes he may wear a couple of times, but oh well, i am thankful we were able to buy them and have the means to. So anyway we got his shoes and headed to the portrait studio. The lady that took his photos was very nice and understanding, i am thankful for that b/c with him being almost 2 he really wants to do things his way and sometimes he just isnt going to do something no matter how much you want him to or ask him nicely. But she got a few good ones and also we took an updated family photo, our first one with the little one in my tummy too:) kinda neat to think of. So you want to see the results? Ok here you go.....

Friday, November 6, 2009


Today as i sit here and write this, my heart is heavy and my mind racing with many thoughts. This morning i found out that my roommate from college, khrista, had her baby at 8am yesterday, when she delivered her uterus became dettached as well and delivered with the baby. She lost 40% of her blood and they had to shock her twice to get her heart to start beating again. They had to perform a hysterectomy and remove her ovaries and also had to do a procedure to stop the bleeding, all which were successful, praise God! They have been keeping her sedated but she woke up long enough this morning to put her hand on her husbands. i am told that the next 48 hours are very critical and that she is in the ICU. Please keep her and her family in your prayers as i cant even imagine what they are going through right now. But there is still hope and i know they are trusting in the Lord to pull her through as we all are.

Hearing about Khrista this morning really got me thinking. Things that i would have normally stressed about today just seem so petty you know? Titus has been whining a lot lately, but you know what? He's alive and hes healthy, and also he is almost 2, so i know that i just need to realize this and know its a stage and handle it with patience. I think God uses things like this to not only make us realize certain things but also to bring us closer to him. I havent prayed fervently like i have all day in a long time, and i should, i should be on my knees everyday thanking him for everything and also praying for people.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

I feel flutters!!!

Yesterday i was 4 months pregnant, wow times flies! But then again it sometimes seems to drag when you are pregnant too. Tomorrow we go to the doctor, we will get to hear the heart beat and check my weight. I had been having trouble gaining weight b/c i was so sick and lost so much but i think i am starting to gain, so i am very thankful for that. The biggest news is that i started to feel the baby move, yay!! What peace of mind that brings:)
Titus lifted my shirt up last night while i was laying and texting someone and started rubbing my belly and saying "baby baby" it was sooo adorable and then he gave the baby kisses. I think often about what it will be like for Titus to not be my only baby, it is a bittersweet feeling. I know he will make a great big brother and of course he will always be my first born:)

Today i am going to take titus to the park when he wakes up from nap to take some pictures in the leaves(i will post them soon), i am hoping its not too chilly and most of all that my camera doesnt die during it, lol.....

Well here are some latest picture of Titus, he was a Dinosaur for Halloween, but we didnt take him trick of treating this year yet, he is still too young and we dont let him have much candy, although he did have 2 suckers on Halloween in which his mommy almost had a heart attack(i work hard on keeping those teeth healthy, lol!) Anyway, so here are some pics of little man, enjoy and have a great day everyone!!!

Thursday, October 29, 2009

The latest

Its been over 2 months since i have posted. I have been very ill with morning/all day sickness with this pregnancy. But i am happy to say that i am feeling much better and so thankful for that. I am now 15 weeks a long, here is a picture i took yesterday, cant beleive how much i am showing!

Titus is 22 months old today~! I just cant beleive it. He loves his "dottie"(stuffed dalmation dog), and now has started trying to feed him breakfast, lunch and supper, well i guess the dogs gotta eat right? lol.... He is talking in sentences, mostly "i love you", "im gonna get you"(a game we play), and last night he said repeated after me when i said, "eat your cheese".
He is still in his crib, and i have no desire to move him out of it untill he tries to climb out, which thankfully hasnt happened yet.
He is getting used to the potty, i sit him on there before bath and i talk to him about it a lot, and also he goes into the bathroom with daddy when he goes so he can see how a "big boy" goes potty. He still isnt showing enough signs to actually start training him but i know it will be soon.
He is weighing in at 28 pounds now, when he was born he was in the 25th percentile for his age and now is in the 75th percentile, he's a growin boy!
Well not much else is really new with us, Jarrell has been working a lot of over time, the only reason i dont like fall, everything else is wonderful about it, just wish i got to spend more time with my husband but they do a lot of overtime this season. But we are really thankful he has that job, praise God! He has blessed us beyond measure!
I wanted to ask everyone for prayer for a little boy named Stellan, i have mentioned him before on my blog here, and he is very sick again, his mothers website is so please go over and read her blog and please pray for them.

Friday, August 28, 2009

This past week

Well i am finally blogging again, i keep getting behind, i dont know why i have days where i just cant seem to get on here, well maybe its because i am dealing with morning/all day sickness as well as chasing a 20 month old around, that will do it. But anyway, we went to our first doctors appointment on tuesday august 25th and we got an ultrasound, we got to see a little yolk sac and it looked like i was about 6 weeks or so. She wants us to come back on monday to get another and she says that if everything is developing the way it should that we should see a heart beat, so we are praying and praying that we see that little baby and heart beat, please join us in prayer as this is a very nerve racking time for our family, but we know that God is in control and he wants the best for his children so we beleive that whatever happens is his plan.

Little Titus is doing so much these days, yesterday he said his first sentence(besides i love you, which he has been saying for a while now), and his first sentence was: "im gon get you!" lol!!! IT was sooo cute, his daddy and me and him always play this game where we get down on our hands and knees and chase him around the table and say "im gonna get you!" so i got down to play that with him and before i said it he just yelled it out. Priceless! Jarrell and i just looked at each other and laughed. He loves playing with play doh a lot and also like bubbles. His favorite show is veggie tales, although i try to not let him watch much tv at all but since i havent been feeling the best i have been more leanient with that, and we sit on the couch and cuddle and watch silly songs with Larry, he loves them. :) Well anyway i just wanted to update everyone on whats been going on and i will try and post again after our doctors appointment on monday and will hopefully have a ultrasound picture to post too! ;) Have a great weekend everyone!

Monday, August 17, 2009


GUESS WHAT????? Well i havent posted since last monday and here it is monday again and i have some news to a way i am a little scared to announce it b/c i have only told close friends and family and really i am not even sure who reads my blog, but i guess we will find out! So here goes...................IM PREGNANT AGAIN!!! YAY! I cant beleive it! Its very soon after our miscarriage but i know that if God allowed us to conceive then it is his plan so i am trusting in him and praying we can carry this baby full term and meet him/her. If you havent already noticed i put a little ticker thing on my sidebar to show you how far along i am and posted my due date as the subject. Oh...and i want to see just how many people read my blog(hoping to not be disappointed and get 0) but i wanted to ask you to please leave a comment on this post if you read it, please??? I would love to hear from you! Thanks everyone!

Monday, August 10, 2009

Not Me Monday!

Welcome to Not Me Monday! Its a blog carnival created by MckMama over at This week i DID NOT:

Travel to Louisville, KY for 5 days only to return home for 3 and then travel to Warrenton and stay another 3 days away from home. I would never get my child so far off his schedule and routine, never!

Get Titus his own cup with a lid and straw wherever we went out to eat b/c i knew it would keep him occupied almost the whole time without screaming at the top of his lungs to hold mine. Even if in fact by the end of the meal he had taken his lid off his cup and was sticking his hand in the drink and wiping it all over his face, i would never let my child act like that in public! If i did i wouldnt post a picture to prove it either:

Go resale shopping with grandma smith from 9am in the morning till 3pm and take titus along, i wouldnt do that to him, i also did not let her buy everything in site and say ok when she refused to let me pay her back.(she's a sweet grandma)

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Back from Louisville

Well if you wondered where i have been, i guess i should have told you, we went to Kentucky for a few days. Louisville. Ky to be exact, Jarrell was in a wedding there of his friend from high school and it was tons of fun! We went down last wednesday night and didnt get home till sunday night. It was a fun trip, but unlike many of you out there who have nice little laptops they can take every where as to blog everyday, i had to go into withdraws from the blog world while away(that was totally a joke, i would never do that right?) haha! they did have a business center at our hotel but we were so busy that i didnt even get a change to get down to it(by busy i of course meant that when we werent doing wedding stuff we were laying in the hotel room watching cable which we DONT have at home, lol). Also i forgot my camera so pictures from our trip were taken on my phone, not the best quality but hey, they work. My next blog i will post some of them. Anyway i just wanted to let everyone know i was still alive and i will post again soon......but for now i will leave you with.............a picture of:

MY LITTLE MONKEY(he's growing up so fast!)

Monday, July 27, 2009

Be strong Stellan and Kate

Tonight i found myself almost darting for my computer once i had Titus down to sleep, i dont usually get on here in the evenings but my mind is filled with thoughts, and prayers right now. I found out today from my friend amy that a little boy who's mom blog i follow is back in the hospital, his name is stellan mckinney and here is his story for any of you who dont already know:

Anyway, ever since i heard the news i have been praying and praying that he will be ok and also just trying to understand why he is and his family are going through this. Tonight while reading titus his book before bed, after we said our prayers, i just sat and sang to him and rocked him.....nothing else on my mind but the fact that i am so thankful he is healthy and at home with us, i just took a deep breath and thanked God for that.

You know i think about Stellan and also about Kate, another little girl i am praying for who has a brain tumor, for her story go here, and i also would like to ask anyone who is reading this to join me in prayer for these 2 young ones and for all others out there who are struggling with things like this, please lift them and their families up in prayer. But i think about stellan and kate and it brings me to tears because i know that their parents are hurting, and they are so young and dont understand what is going on and why it is, it makes me wonder why do things like this happen to young precious ones, esp. the young ones of families who are beleivers and beleive and trust God and are serving him with their lives and how they live them. Why do they get diseases and tumors and have svt, why? It makes me angry, it makes me want to scream, it makes me want to take all their pain away and give it to someone older, someone who isnt a beleiver, and doesnt obey God and hates the things of God and wants nothing to do with them, THEY should have to have these horrible diseases, not Kate and not Stellan!!!!

But then i realize.......................God has a plan, God is mighty, God is just, God is soverign, God is all powerful. He knows what he is doing, and although this is happening to them, he is holding them in his arms, he is near.............Hold on Stellan and strong, our God knows best and he will heal you if it is his will to heal you, it may not happen today, it may not happen soon, but it will happen in his time, i dont know either of you personally, but i love you and i am on my knees praying for you everyday

Monday, July 20, 2009

Not my Child!

After just getting out of the bath it was not my child who, while i was finishing up the dishes decided he would go play in the window sill of the window dad opened earlier that mommy had no idea was open, that the dirt was probably built up from at least 5 years(guess i need to clean better), nope not my child!

It is not my child who decided after 12 months of sleeping soundly in his crib and laying down and going by himself that he no longer wanted to do that and now screams bloody murder any time you put him down to bed.

It is also not my child who can count to ten at only 1 and 1/2 but he gets a little mixed up at times and says 2 then 5 then 6 then 9, but hey he can do it! Im so proud!(had to put a nice one in there)

It is not my child who when you go into his room in the morning he will act like he wants out of his crib untill you go to pick him up and then he acts like he wants to lay back down and sleep and gives a little grin and then wants you to go to the door and say bye and act like you are leaving and then he will reach out for you again(he loves that game).

It is not my child who never cried when he was a newborn, every once in while if i let him get too hungry he would, but otherwise he would just fuss a little when hungry and otherwise sleep, now he has lungs bigger than any toddler i have heard and screams at random times in which scare me most of the time and make me almost have a heart attack.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Where did last week go?

wow, i cant beleive its already saturday, where did this week go?!! Well that wasnt what i was thinking on wednesday afternoon when i can remember watching the clock, for some reason the afternoon drug along. But wednesday night was a lot of fun, Titus and i went to church and my god son Tyler's mom brought him to meet us there, he has been coming most wednesdays and going to class, he likes it and i am glad to get to see him and feel good about knowing he is learning about Jesus. Jarrell went to the Lake of the Ozarks wednesday morning to help my grandma get her boat in the water, little did he know that the boat had some problems and he ended up staying the whole day to work on it, but he said he had a lot of fun, he got to meet some of my family that he hasnt met yet either. Well they didnt get the boat running but he finally called it quits and headed home. He didnt get home that night(morning) till 3am! You would think i would be fast asleep but what was i doing??? Well i had called my good friend Megan, her husband works a swing shift and was working nights and we got talking and gabbing and ended up talking up untill he got home! lol! It made for a long day Thursday, i can remember hearing Titus wake up that morning and thinking "did i even go to sleep?" when he took a nap on Thursday i laid down also and tried to catch up on some sleep. Thursday night we all went to bed early, Jarrell was about to start on days friday, and Titus and i were worn out from playing at the park after waking up from nap. On Friday i had decided i would drive to Fayette for the day to see my family, i left early and then got back around the time Jarrell was getting home from work. It made for a long day, but it was nice to see them. Also my sister Becky cut my hair, she just got out of Cosmetology school, its nice to have a sister that can do my hair now! Exciting! Then last night, Jarrell, Titus and I just hung out here at the house, Jarrell taught me some songs on the guitar while Titus ran around and played(except for when he was trying to strum on our guitars), and we just all had a family night here at the house, it was a lot of fun, my favorite kind of night.

OnSaturday, this morning Titus and i got up early and went to the Farmers Market, we got a lot of great stuff, including, fresh blackberries, blueberries, and some homemade granold bars, yummy. Welll i am going to go ahead and publish this post and start on my "Not My Child blog post"(its a new thing that McMama started today), since its already monday and i started this on sat. morning, oh the life of a mother/wife/babysitter.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Not Me Monday!(on Tuesday)

OK so i didnt get to my not me monday post yesterday b/c well..i was taking care of 4 children and once i got time Titus decided he was gonna wake up early from nap, so here i am, on tuesday, but i am still gonna do it!

If you dont know what i am talking about by me saying "Not me monday" then head over to which is where i linked to for this post. Mckmama always has a lot of good advice, i am so glad that my friend pointed me to her blog, i read it daily(sometimes more than once lol), so anyway head over there and read more if you would like.

Not Me Monday!

This week i DID NOT find a fruit snack on the carpet of the living room while picking up the toys and instead of throwing it away, throw it back down on the carpet, i mean i didnt want to waste it, and i thought "hey whatever kids finds it first? lucky them!" lol!

This week i DID NOT leave Titus in his pajamas for the entire day at least 3 out of the 7, because we werent going anywhere, i mean who wants to waste a good outfit on just staying home?

This week i DID NOT take the pack n play down b/c Titus kept crawling off the couch into it and instead of repeatidly getting on to him and giving him time outs in which i was exhausted i just decided "to heck with it", we dont need it there anyway.

I also DID NOT take all the tapes off the shelves that are in Titus' reach b/c everytime i leave the room its cue for take them all off and throw them everywhere

I DID NOT finish doing the last load of laundry on sunday, only to start it again on tuesday(laundry day) when i usually have it all done by wed night, not me!


I still havent posted about the fun that we had on the 4th of July, soon soon my friends, i will try to anyway, no promises, cause i still havent done this. Anyway, here is a picture that my neice Carly took of Titus and i the next morning after we all woke up and had Caseys donuts before everyone left.(we are both very tired as you can see, up late watching fireworks).

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Ketchup Post~ Swimming pictures, and some thought about our culture

As i promised, here are some pictures from our swimming adventure on wednesday, it was lot of fun. My friend Rachel from church went with me and helped out with the kids, also my friend Gail met us and went too, she has a boy Logan, who is 10, we all had such a blast. Thanks so much Rachel and Gail for helping me! You guys rock!


Last Thursday my friend Gail came over to my house while Titus napped because i decided i was going to go get a spray tan, i had heard that a place here in hannibal had it and it was only $20, any of you who know me know that i am pretty pale, so i thought i would give it a shot since Jarrell and i are going to Louisville in August for a wedding he is in and i know i have to wear a dress, i thought i would try this instead of going to a tanning bed(dont think thats very good for you), and if it worked then i would go back right before the wedding, so this was a test run i guess you could say.....anyway, as i walked out of the salon after getting my spray tan, which by the way i LOVE and cant beleive it looks this real, as i walked out of the salon i ran into 3 young girls, couldnt have been past age 16(im only 25 but they just seem young for some reason lol), anyway one of them was on her phone and this is the conversation i heard(the i wish i hadnt have): In a yelling voice: "Well you need to stop playin her! He said you were sleeping with his ex girlfriend, and hes gonna come whoop your a##, you guys are just over there all day smoking weed at her house!" You stupid Mother F$#*%)!"
I just got in my car(which was behind another car so they couldnt see me), and i just sat there, probably for a good few minutes and just stared forward, then i started to pray, i was so discouraged. Then i started to wonder if i was just oblivious and nieve. Am i? I mean i just couldnt beleive that girls this young were involved in things like this and were talking the way they were. It broke my heart. Then i started to think about the young women at our church, and how i have been wanting to start a bible study with them, maybe this was God telling me to get with it and get this started all ready, we have been so busy this summer that a lot of things are being put on hold. But i looked up books yesterday and am planning on starting soon.

On friday Titus and i had a good day in Quincy. We went to old navy first and i got titus a pair of pj's that were 95% off, pretty sweet if you ask me. Then we went and ate at panera bread(my fav place to eat) and it was a blast. I got my usual, half a sierra turkey sand. and a bowl of broccoli cheddar soup. Titus got a grilled cheese and some organic blueberry yogurt(go gurt), we shared a drink, it was such a good time. Here is a picture from our lunch date;)

On Saturday Jarrell, Titus and i went over to eat at Scott and Martha Slaytons house, they are a couple from our church and their testimony is absolutely amazing and encouraging. I dont know all of it but i do know they were married and divorced and seperated(like in different states) for a while and then they both got saved and God brought them back together and restored their marriage. Its incredible and they are living proof of Gods grace and mercy. Here is a picture we took before leaving for their house:

We had a lot of fun, we ate steak, summer squash, potatoes, and martha can cook now, she blew me out of the water(not hard to do though, i am still learning), but it was really good. They gave us a grand tour of their cute little home, it has so much character, and it very homey. Then we all 5, with titus in the stroller decided to take JB(their sweet golden retriever) for a walk. They live over by HLG campus(where jarrell and i both went to college and met), so we walked through campus, and it was really neat actually, have so many memories there, some bad some good, but mostly good, and it was neat cause we told them kinda our story and how we met and got engaged and then Jarrell decided to tell them that i was a cheerleader, in which i try to keep kinda secret(and i just told my whole blog world), lol...but anyway martha was impressed and i told her not to be cause i wasnt very good, and although i did have to try out, we were nothing like what you would call varsity college level cheerleaders, but it was fun and i enjoyed it and met a lot of great christian people through it. When we got back Titus was getting fussy and i realized i didnt even bring a diaper for him(i am a terrible mommy, that needs to go on my not me monday post i am gonna do next!) SO we left and came home and got little titus into bed and watched Reba.

Sunday we went to church, as a family! I say it like that because Jarrell has to work every other weekend and so we dont get to go much as a family, because when he is off we go to visit our families out of town a lot and so we get to go as a family but not to our home church. So we went to church and then we went out to eat at pizza hut, we had the buffet. Titus was well behaved which made me happy because their were a lot of people there. Then we came home and put ti down for his nap and jarrell and i lounged around and watched Madea goes to jail, it was funny and had a good message as well, i really like all the tyler perry plays and movies. That night we went back to church and then came home and ate mcdonalds(we got out late so we just ran and picked something up), then titus got his bath, and i put him down and then we of course watched reba(we are on episode 14) and went to bed ourselves.

SO here we are, its monday, and i think i am all ketched stay tuned for my Not Me Monday post, coming soon...(hopefully if the kids nap as planned)

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

wednesday fun

Today i am going to attempt to take a 18 month old(my little boy), a 22 month old and a 9 month old(my 2 part time babysitting kids), to the pool. Yes, i am very brave, but i also have help, a girl from my church whom i adore named rachel is coming over to help me with the children this afternoon, she is 12 and is a little sweetheart, i just love her family. Also my friend Gail will be there and she loves to help with the kids too, so i really think we will have a lot of fun. I will try and post pictures tomorrow of our little swimming adventure. Last night my friend Megan came over, we ate Subway and chatted(when we get together there is never a dull or quiet moment.) We could talk for hours and still have something to talk about, but i guess thats just how friends are. I am so thankful for her friendship, christian friends are hard to come by these days. Tonight we will watch our God son Tyler for a few hours, i am hoping i am not exhausted from swimming and still have the energy, but i know Jarrell will help me when he gets home from work. When Jarrell has to work the next day we sometimes do not go to church on wed nights b/c they do not have a nursery on wed nights and titus is still too young for class so he has to come to my class and with the age he is at right now, he wont sit still and wants to run, which i dont blame him, he is 1 and a 1/2. So unless Jarrell goes with me and we take turns taking him out or entertaining and the other gets to listen for a while, then i do not go, although i cant wait till i am able to go because i love our church family and am actually considering just going untill i cant contain titus anymore and then leaving, it would be worth it to hear something and also to be around my church family:)!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Future underwear model......

(you know if the whole pro golfer thing doesnt work out)

I snapped this photo of Titus the other night when he had just gotten out of the bath and was still in his towel. At only 18 months, what a handsome young man he already is growing up to be.........p.s. for those of you who dont know me personally, i would never really encourage the whole model thing, this was just for fun, i mean come on now, look how handsome this little guy is!(gets it from his dad not me).

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Excited about this weekend!

This weekend is the 4th of July! yay! We have pretty big plans, including something called Tom Sawyer Days which goes on downtown here where i live in America's Hometown. They are a lot of fun. Also my family is coming up to visit, well most of them. My older sister Marissa, her husband Steven, and their 2 daughters Carly 10, and Cayle 2. Also my younger sister Becky, her husband Cameron, and their daughter Malea-5 months. Tomorrow i will probably not blog, because i will be getting the house ready and shopping for all the food we will need. I am very excited. Last year on the 4th, Jarrell, Titus and I were in St. Louis for Jarrells family reunion which takes place every 2 years. It was a lot of fun. Here is a picture of Titus and i that Jarrell took in the hotel room:

Wow, cant beleive how little Titus was, and bald, lol! This year he will be running around!

Tuesday, June 30, 2009


I never really just sit down and type things that i have going on in my head, i usually have a specific topic but today i thought that i would just let you in on some of my thoughts. Have you ever wondered why women are so obsessive about their weight? Well i think that the main reason is the media, you see size 0 models on the cover of every magazine and on every movie you watch now the actresses are tan, skinny and have had numerous implants, etc. How are we not to obsess? Do you think women back in the olden days thought this way? Probably not, and if so, not even close to how we are now. Its sad....just really sad. Health is suppose to be what matters yet many women will compromise that just to look good and look younger!

Switching gears now....

Have you ever wondered why its so hard not to gossip? I mean why is it when we talk to one of our friends that we automatically start talking bad about one of our other friends or about someone else, i think some people even just use it to have conversation but just dont realize the damage it can do. I am at fault here big is something to think about. Would you say what you are saying to that friend about the other friend to their face even in a nice way?

Well Titus will just not nap today for anything and is crying now for the 2nd time, i thought he had went back to sleep after only sleeping an hour to begin with, but i guess not. Better go get him. Have a good tuesday everyone!!

Monday, June 29, 2009

Just another day in paradise

I thought id let everyone in on what its like in the Smith household monday-wednesday. I watch a little girl and her younger brother, if you didnt know that go here. Mornings consist of breakfast, playtime, veggie tales, music time and sometimes walks, then its naptime and after that lunch. Then more playtime and then an afternoon activity such as coloring or reading time. Then its off to nap again and pick up time is at 5:15pm or so. Of course any of you who have children or have taken care of children know that its not always smooth sailing, theres the occasional blow out diaper that requires a bath, fussiness b/c of teething which can make everyone miserable, etc. But for the most part.....its just another day in paradise. :-)






Thursday, June 25, 2009

Carrie and Adley

Whoa....boy am i glad to be sitting here resting at my computer after this was a very eventful yet wonderful day....

Today my 2nd oldest sister Carrie came to visit. She has a little girl named Adley who is 5 months old, and a little sweetie if you ask me(and no im not just being a partial, proud aunt, she really is).

We had a lot of fun, this morning we went to Goodwill, i have not been there in a long time, i am trying to do better on spending, but we did find some really good deals. Carrie got some outfits for Adley and Malea, my youngest sister Becky's little girl who is 2 weeks younger than Adley(and also a sweetie), and i got some clothes for Titus and also a few bible videos.

After that we decided that we were hungry so we headed out to Fiddlestiks, a really good restaurant here in Hannibal.

Then we decided to come home for a bit and rest, i also forgot to mention that i was watching a little girl for one of my friends, her name is Kaylin and she is 13 months, so after taking 3 kids out and about all morning we needed a rest, lol. But it was a lot of fun.

Then we took Kaylin home and headed to Quincy. While in Quincy we went to 3 resale shops, we found a lot of good things, one of which was a cute jumperoo for my sister Becky for Malea, Adley has one and Malea likes it so they wanted to get one for her to have at home also.

Then we headed back to Hannibal and Carrie decided to drive back while Adley was sleeping in the car, since its about a 2 hour drive back.

It was a very fun day and i am so blessed to have sisters who love me and come spend time with Titus and I.

This weekend we are going to Fayette to see the rest of my family, Jarrell is going to golf with my brother in laws, and of course us girls will just hang out and play with the babies, i cant wait!

Have a great weekend everyone!

Friday, June 19, 2009

Baby Boy

Dear Sweet Baby Titus,

As i watch you sleep today i realized in a few short days you will be turning 18 months old, i just cant beleive it. I remember the first time i laid eyes on you, the doctor took you and placed you on my stomach and you just looked at me and whimpered, you were pretty mad about coming into this world, in fact, i wonder how long you would have waited if they didnt put me into labor, i was already 1 week and 1 day past my due date. I dont blame you, im sure it was quite comfortable and warm there in my womb.

But once you were here we just couldnt stop staring at you, you were so handsome, i remember your big brown eyes staring forward as you would nurse, and then eventually you would fall asleep and nothing could wake you, you slept so peacefully. I remember our last day in the hospital with you, daddy went to pull up the truck and get it warm(it was snowing and cold) and he gave you to me and we just sat there in my bed and fell asleep together.

Oh how i wish i would just bottle you up and you would stay a baby forever, but since i know i cant i am going to cherish every moment with you. I will leave no kiss unkissed and no cuddle uncuddled, no matter what the hour of day or night. Since I cannot keep you little forever, I will make the sweetest, deepest memories that I can, now while you are little.

There are days when i rock you and you have fallen fast asleep and i just cant put you down in your bed, i know there is cleaning, dishes and laundry to be done but i just sit and stare and you, at your sweet little eye brows, and your cute little ringlet curls. Im sure you will go onto be a great big brother to your brothers and/or sisters in the future and i want you to know that i love you very much and you will always be my first born and my little "ti pie".

All my love,


Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Lord be near....

Things seem to be alittle bit more like normal around here today....but there is still that sadness in the air, i feel it in me and i see it in jarrell when he looks at me.

On Sunday i beleive that i passed what would have been the baby, i am almost 99% sure it was and that i miscarried. We will go to the doctor this week(when they call me back), to confirm it. There is still a little hope though, and we are not completely throwing the towel in, which i think may be harder than just having closer. But this week we will know something.

A verse that has given me comfort throughout this is "When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears, and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted, and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous; but the Lord delivers him out of them all." Psalm 34: 17-19

Lord be near..........

Sunday, June 14, 2009


This is the hardest post i have had to write so far. As you know i am 6 weeks pregnant, on thursday morning i started to bleed and by friday it was a little heavier, i called my doctor and she said to just monitor over the weekend and if it got heavier or i started to cramp to come in. About 10pm on friday i started to get what felt like menstrual cramps, and then about 4am we decided to go into the ER, they did an exam and said that my cervix was still closed(which can mean the baby may still be ok) i am too early for anything to show up on a ultrasound so we pretty much just have to wait....they diagnosed me with threatened miscarriage, and told me to take it easy and we are waiting.....and its not easy. I have so many thoughts going through my head i cant even type them all. Is the baby ok? Is there something wrong with my body? Will i miscarry? Will i go on to have this baby and then tell he/she what a scare they gave us? I just dont know, so we are to wait.......wait on the Lord and pray. Please pray for our family.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Curls, curls and more curls...

When Titus first started getting more hair and it was curling a little i thought maybe that his hair was going to be curly like his fathers(b/c of course its not like he gets anything else from his father, look at him!) Now i am definetely convinced that it is going to be curly. I mean look at how cute these curls are!!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Daddy and me

I dont know if everyone is familiar with the program named "Parents as Teachers" but i think it is great! We have a parent educator that comes to our home once a month and gives me information on what age Titus is and the milestones he should be accomplishing as well as gives me advice on things. Its really neat and titus has really warmed up to ours, her name is Melissa and she is great. On her first visit here Melissa gave us a book called "Daddy and me" and my first look at it i thought it was kinda silly cause its not a story book it just has different dads and their children on each page and says one word of what they are doing, for instance "playing". Well anyway, it has become Titus' favorite book of all! He loves it, and wants to read it constantly, he especially likes when Daddy reads it to him. Its weird how i thought it would just be another book that got chewed on and thrown aside and it has become quite a favorite in the Smith household(coming in 2nd with Swimmey the dolphin of course).

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Tiger Woods??


Titus loves to put on peoples shoes, especially his daddies and this particular day he wanted to wear Jarrells golfing shoes. Is this a sign that Titus will love golf as much as his dad? Who knows, but i think he looks like a future pro golfer if you ask me:)

Monday, June 1, 2009

Psalm 139:13

"For thou didst form my inward parts, thou didst knit me together in my mother's womb."

Last month we found out some very exciting(and suprising) news!~........................we are GONNA HAVE ANOTHER BABY! I could not beleive my eyes when i saw the pregnancy test, and then 3 tests later i realized it was really true! We are very excited and just kinda "waiting" around if you would say for our first Doctors appointment. It is scheduled for next tuesday June 9th. I was looking today in my keepsake book of when i was pregnant with Titus and my first appointment with him was June 8th, neat huh? I am thinking i will be due a little later this time than i was with Titus, i was due with Titus on Dec. 22, 2007 and i am thinking it will be more like January for this one, oh and 2010! Seems so weird to me still that we are in the 2000's, maybe i am just a bit behind or something, lol.

Well in the mean time Titus is still growing and growing, not only physically although i am sure he has to be at least 30 pounds by now, he is soo stout, and he is very tall as well, he will be going to the doctor next month for his well baby visit so i will be excited to see what percentiles he is in now, cant imagine it not being high.
I am still keeping my 2 babysitting kids 3 days a week. The other day i took them all 3 on a walk, here is Kylie and Titus in the double stroller(i had already taken Austin out).

Sometimes when it is nice outside but i am not able to take them out i will open the door and let them watch the cars go by, and of course yell at people walking down the side walk and make them laugh.



Last week also my awesome husband landscaped our whole front yard, it looks so good! Who would have thought he had such a green thumb, i mean its not like he is good at everything he tries, ahem. ok so maybe he is. But anyway, its looks really good and i will try and remember to post some pictures of all the beautiful flowers soon. Here is a picture i took of Titus the other day in his new old navy outfit(you can kinda see some of the flowers.)

In the evenings it has mainly been just Titus and i lately, because Jarrell is working a lot of over time, once i give him a bath he loves to run around in his diaper, so i let him run and play for a little while before bed.