wow....who knew the toddlers years could be this trying?? Well im sure if i asked anyone who has raised one they would say "me!" Boy is Titus sure trying my patience lately, and the bad thing is i struggle with having patience anyway and up until now its been ok because i couldnt have asked for a better baby.
From the time he was born i maybe heard him cry 3 times, when he first came out and they were washing him off and then maybe a couple other times when i let him get to hungry in between feedings(if we were out somewhere, etc.) Otherwise he would simply whimper a little and root his mouth in a sucking motion that made me know he was hungry. He slept good and was sleeping completely throught the night at 3 months.
And fast forward................now we are in the toddler years, Titus is 23 months old, he will turn 2 on December 29(im gonna cry i know it). Dont get me wrong he is still a good kid and most would probably say a great kid compared to other 2 years old, but i am so used to how good he was as a baby that this is taking me by shock, lol....
When he turned 8 months old i decided it was time for him to learn to put himself to sleep(i had been rocking him up untill then and he got to where he would not let me rock him anymore, he would squirm and try to sit up, etc), so i used the cry it out method, he cried for about a week when i layed him down and then after that when i layed him down he would just turn over, or play for a little while and babble and then go to sleep(dont get me wrong, i made it sound easier than it was, i cried the first couple nights that i had to let him cry it out and i also felt like i had an ulcer from the stress of hearing him cry and wanting to go pick him up.) But it was the best thing i ever did!!!! He slept so good with the occasional waking up and also with teething he sometimes had a hard time or when he was sick too, but for the most part he was a good sleeper.
One night not too long ago he decided that he was going to start screaming again when i put him down, so i tried rocking him and he went right to sleep. So i decided hey ill just rock him, he is not going to be a baby forever and plus if he was actually going to let me rock him and go right to sleep then why not? So its been about a month now and every night i rock him to sleep, he is usually asleep within 5 minutes and i put him to bed and he sleeps 10 hours(its great!) Well 3 nights ago he decided he was going to start squirming and trying to get up and play games and sing instead of go to sleep, although this is very cute and entertaining and a lot of times i just let him because i love listening to him, it still does not make for a good bedtime routine. SO........what now?
Well i guess i will try the cry it out again, with the new baby coming in April it may be the best thing but a part of me just doenst want to give up that time with Titus, i just love rocking him(if he lets me) and watching him sleep in my arms, so i guess we will see how it goes. My plan before my children were born was to rock them till their feet touched the ground, and if Titus would let me i probably would, these years fly by and i know i will never regret that time with him and i will always remember and cherish it.......I love being a mommy!!!